Nick Cannon ex Jessica White joins Love & Hip Hop Atlanta Season 11

A wise woman once sang, “I don’t know what it is that you’ve done to me. But, it’s caused me to act in such a crazy way.” At my big age, I am completely baffled as to what Nick Cannon does to women (aside from impregnating them) like Jessica White that keeps them in a chokehold.

The 38-year-old model and actress took to the streets of Instagram on Tuesday and wrote Nick a thesis statement about the ups and downs of their 8-year relationship.

Jessica also said that she tried to be his “ride-or-die” but always felt like he put other women on a pedestal.

The open letter felt like something that would have been more suitable for a personal journal. but I guess Sis had to do what she had to do in order to heal.

Read Jessica White’s open letter to Nick Cannon below.

Tried to reach out to you but here’s my book @nickcannon I know you’re upset about the show but after eight years I can’t stand when things catch you off guard and I feel like you deserve way more respect as a man even though I may be more respectful than you ever gave me With public announcements. Lol
 
I have loved and I gave eight ride or die years to you With my head high and heart praying you’d see me the way I deserved.
 
I wanted it to work, prayed every day that you’d see me and love me the way that I loved you.
 
Maybe you did but just kept it from me during the relationship. I walked away with more questions than anything, I don’t know till this day really why current things had to happen.
 
I wanted the world to know I didn’t always feel good like NC was proud to have me as a partner and I’m so happy I can say that now and still know how awesome I am.
 
I’m proud I can say the truth and how I’m healthy emotionally and wouldn’t change my insane insecurities that I prayed off my life.
 
I had many hurts and pain way before Nick. I never felt love that was safe even as a kid so no Nick you didn’t cause that pain I had it long before us but I put it off on you unfairly without seeing that my healing needed to be deeper past us.
 
I mean you added to it but my fear of not being loved wasn’t broken by you I’d like to publicly say that.
 
I felt like you always put the other women on a pedestal and I was beyond unstable about that. I have to say these things because I’m going to move on from public shame that has been over my life since I was at the top of my game in fashion.
 
I know the truth now about just how much healing I needed and God has taken my hurt I’m not ashamed by being beautiful and successful and not being loved with care throughout my life because there’s big big love coming to me that will fill up my memories with joy.
 
God will get the glory out of my broken past not shame nor sadness. the truth is NC and I were both beautifully broken when we were children and didn’t know how to love each other.
 
Instead, we hurt each other.

See Jessica’s original post below.

https://www.instagram.com/p/Ctbze_ArY0i/

In the comments, Jessica added a few more thoughts…where she said she hopes Nick finds love and if she had to choose, she would pick his baby mama, Abby De La Rosa.

believe it or not I’m not that experienced in dating and can’t wait to experience more fun in relationships with safety and go on vacations.

I stood up for myself and had to admit I to was the blame for my heartbreak because I stayed didn’t take care of me. You did your best and I know you wouldn’t want to see me hurt.

I was so scared to film because you know I struggle with public anxiety but I’m ready and I’ve never been more mentally prepared in my life.

I’m proud of me and found my new voice. she’s calm and really over the hurt from my entire life. I never thought I’d be living happily without you but I’m and got my mind back and I’m emotionally healthy and more confident then ever before.

I know what I want and I’m not afraid to say it and hold space for myself for the 1st time in life. My health is 1st and I’m still working on things but God is blessing me.

So I’m good and cleaning up all my sh*t from the past. It’s been a blast but I’m happy I’m not crying over seeing you with other women anymore.

It doesn’t hurt me anymore and I’m so grateful. I sucked at sharing and never want to again. Thank for the experience tho lol I hope you settle down one day and let love In again. if I had my pick it would be with Abby she’s boss and stood strong around me and never got insecure or change her love and joy towards me.

That’s Boss and hard to do around me and you need that kind of energy to keep shit light and fun and she loves God so yeah she my pick Yep!

I’m ending us with a Big Bang and I’m not scared to say the truth nor will I let you take the blame for us needing to end we were toxic together and I was very disrespectful verbally towards you many many times and sometimes I didn’t even care knowing how you hated verbal dysfunction I know.

While many of the comments on Jessica’s post were positive…there were a few folks who said what the majority of us were thinking.

Jessica White comments on Nick Cannon post

Now, the last time Nick Cannon and Jessica White hit my timeline together was when she did that freaky pose for the cover of his mixtape.

Apparently, Jessica White has joined “Love & Hip Hop: Atlanta” Season 11 and plans to use the platform to discuss her relationship with Nick Cannon.

So, this letter serves as a buffer before he sees what she has to say about him on national TV.

Watch the LHHATL Season 11 super trailer.

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