Tami Roman wrote:
As I sat trying to find the reason, the why, the how come…I remained at a loss for words. My emotions were high and my spirit was low. I don’t think anyone will understand the sadness that I felt. All I wanted to do was share a positive moment with the man I love. I couldn’t stop crying and asking God why…then a stillness came over me, a quiet, a simple peace. What I’m about to say will seem undoubtedly strange, but it made perfect sense to me.
I lost my baby on my mother’s birthday. My mother has been gone for two years and I feel she has missed being apart of so many wonderful moments in my life and the lives of my daughters. She didn’t get to meet the man I love and she would’ve really liked Reggie.
I came to the conclusion that this is a lesson in love and loss. This is another test of my faith and my strength. I got to a place of eerie calm, believing the spirit of my unborn child is with my mom. I don’t know, it made me feel better believing that a part of me is keeping her company.
I’m not supposed to understand everything. Some things are so beyond my grasp and extremely spiritual. The loss has shown me how much I would love to be a mother again. I always thought this was about Reggie, that I was doing this for him…but NO, this is about me. I know that now. God needed to know I wanted this too and I DO. I’ve grown so much since having my daughters and I want the opportunity to be a better mother, with less mistakes, less selfishness and more love than ever to give.
I know that I am stronger than this situation and I’m not giving up. This is not a condescending or statistical “I told you so” moment, but instead a “You can defy the odds” empowerment moment. I represent women my age who want families, but feel it’s not possible or think it’s too late. I plan to show you with God’s help, that it can be done.
I appreciate the prayers from my friends and family who reached out to me personally and from ALL of you! My babies @jazzanderson @lyricchanel for being so supportive and my love @reggieyb1 for being so understanding. Lets get back to life and keep pressing forward.
Please continue to keep us uplifted as we are not giving up or in.
I salute Tami for being brave enough to open up and share her personal testimony to help and inspire other women who may be going through the same thing.
I wish her and Reggie the very best as they move forward.
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