“Speaking your truth is the most powerful tool we all have.” – Oprah Winfrey
Mimi revealed she was initially diagnosed back in 2001, when she had a mental and physical breakdown. But, she continued to live in denial until recently.
Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me.
It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music.
I’m actually taking medication that seems to be pretty good. It’s not making me feel too tired or sluggish or anything like that. Finding the proper balance is what is most important.
For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder. But it wasn’t normal insomnia and I wasn’t lying awake counting sheep. I was working and working and working … I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down.
It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania. Eventually I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad — even guilty that I wasn’t doing what I needed to be doing.
The good news is Mariah Carey is now getting proper treatment for bipolar II disorder and is doing much better.
I’m just in a really good place right now, where I’m comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder.
I’m hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating.
It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.
For yeeeears, we all know something was going on with Mimi. We just didn’t know what.
I appreciate and admire her transparency.